Qaf drabbles (english)

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Author: Dunderklumpen
Fandom: Queer as Folk
Genre: Romance
Pairing: Ben/Michael, Michael/Brian, Ted/Blake
Rating: NC-17
Summary: "In his heart Michael was a romantic! When I asked him if he would marry me, I felt that he was the man of my dreams."
Beta: A big thank you to kjuw89. She helped with the translations and I'm really grateful for her patience.
Disclaimer: Queer as Folk is the property of Cowlip and Showtime.
A/N: These are translations of german drabbles I wrote some time ago. Unfortunately I had to abbreviate them because they had more words in english than in german. I think they lost some quality because of that but I hope you still enjoy them.

Family (# 30 “grateful”)

“You’re crazy!”

“I know,” he laughed as he pulled Michael onto his lap.

“Interested in being crazy with me?” Ben’s voice was deep and husky.  It was clear what he wanted, and he knew that Michael couldn’t resist him. Grinning he kissed him on this special spot behind his ear and got a surprised groan in return. For few seconds Michael gave in and kissed back. It was a passionate kiss which promised more and Ben’s heart beat faster. But Michael pulled away from him.

“We can’t. Hunter’s upstairs.” he said.

Hunter smiled when he heard that and grabbed his wallet. Making as much noise as he could he ran down the stairs and passed his two dads on his way to the door.

“I’ll go meet some friends at the mall. I’m gone.”

Ben and Michael looked at each other.

“You better be home by 10 o'clock,” Michael shouted as he heard the door close.

Standing in the cold on the front steps Hunter smiled again. He was grateful for these little moments. Grateful for the fact that they wanted him and worried about him and loved him. What were a few hours in the mall compared with that?

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Romantic (# 29 “loved”)

In his heart Michael was a romantic! When I asked him if he would marry me, I felt that he was the man of my dreams. When he gave me his answer I was the happiest man in the world. But I knew that he had dreamed of something more. I heard the key in the door and grabbed the box. When Michael went into the dining room I followed him, fell to one knee and looked my love in the eyes so that I could ask the question again, although I was pretty sure I already knew the answer.

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# 18 “weak”

Ben lay in his arms. His body still felt warm, even though nearly all of his strength were gone. His eyes were closed as his head rested on Michael’s chest. Their breathing patterns matched up for a brief period of time as he felt himself get weaker with each breath. It broke Michael’s heart to see him like this. But they had known that this day would come. Imperceptibly he pulled Ben closer, trying to become one with the man who gave his life meaning.

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Cruel? (# 16 “frustrated”)

It was always the same routine! Michael observed how Brian danced close to the stranger. Hands touched and tongues met in a duel of desire. With very few words Brian led the man to the back room, where he would enjoy the same pleasures he seemed to have every night. Michael felt a sharp pang in his chest. One really should be used to it by now, but it was not to be. Furiously he drank his shot of Tequila and got one last glimpse of Brian, who had disappeared in the dark. He sighed. First love is the cruelest!

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Fateful meeting (# 22 “surprises”)

He didn’t believe in God. But after all highs and lows he had experienced so far, this conviction began to slowly dissolve. Perhaps there really was someone who held a protective hand over him, helped him to rise again and again. Perhaps this being was also responsible for the fact that he met him time and time again. He was the central theme in the last years of his life. There weren’t always beautiful memories that connected them, but one feeling outweighed everything else when he thought about him, which was the love he felt for the blond man.

For as long as he could remember he looked for love. He was always the lonely knight on an exhausting journey for that Holy Grail; secretly fearing that if he ever found love it would just disappoint him. But with unending stubbornness he continued on his quest, convinced that life still held a few surprises for him. Their current meeting had been one such surprise and he couldn’t have wished for anything better for his birthday. He didn’t know whether it was fate or God, but he felt forever bonded with Blake who approached him and cuddled up next to him.

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Decisions (# 20 “uncomfortable”) – refer to the Ted/Blake scene when Ted opened the door in his “laundry day” T-shirt

When he kissed Ted there they were again; the old feelings that he had buried deep inside. He had hurt Ted back then and had nearly killed him. First the dark haired accountant had shown him that he was worthy of being loved. Through him he learned to love himself again. He knew what Ted had gone through at that moment and he wanted to help. But he felt uncomfortable at the same time, felt that this was wrong. When he tasted him and felt his tongue in his mouth it was too late. The decision had already been made.